Single Mom Guilt

I've been feeling like a dead-beat mom lately and it's really starting to wear on my mental health. I've gone away a lot recently, sometimes leaving Boo alone for multiple days. Other days, I stay out late and come home drunk. When he acts out, I can only assume that it's my fault.

Sex.

Drugs.

Alcohol.

But it's so hard being a single mom. I work 40 hours a week, sometimes more. I gotta pay the bills and buy that canned food he really likes -- they don't give WIC for cats. Also,  I'm really trying to find Boo a daddy, and that requires lots of drinking socializing.  Everything I do, I do for him!  But I don't think he sees that. 

This morning, I felt so guilty about leaving him again, I showered him with treats and toys and catnip. But I could still see the resentment in his eyes as I was walking out the door. You can't buy love, no matter how much you spend. This must be what the Kardashians feel like.